March 3, 2010, 5:00 am
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I’m crying after reading ‘sex and love bites’ posts.
Its tear me to pieces, to know her heart is breaking even though there is not much left.
I can relate to what she is going thru ….. from a broken heart to another broken hearts.

Reality bites …… and it’s too painful.
Someone said this to me before ‘A bottle of Jack Daniel and a straight razor’……


March 3, 2010, 4:41 am
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Bloody bloody bloody ……

What do I mean to you?
What did we do wrong?
What does all this mean?
What do you want from me?

Am I not worth it or are you not worth my while.

February 28, 2010, 6:20 am
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Waiting …. I’m still waiting.
Feel like my neck has grow few inches waiting for xxxxxxx.
Waiting …. still waiting.

February 25, 2010, 3:17 am
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Marathon movies to be exact! hahaha

Had two movies back to back all by myself. Not surprising as I used to do this all the times, less of late.
‘All Well Ends Well’ and ’72 Tenant of Prosperity’ was equally entertaining and hilarous. My idol Jackie Cheung was in the second movie …. oh he look so much better now compare to his younger day.

With the first movie, was fun as there were only few people in the cinema but for second movie, i had this smelly couple siting beside me ‘oucchh’. They chat non-stop and shit that guy shoes or rather feets smelled like garbage. I’m just glad i only have to tolerate his smells shoes not his armpits together. I almost walk out of the cinema when i spotted some empty seats hehehehe.

After movies, I went for my fav noodles for dinner.
Thought I’ll stop over at station one to login to facebook but instead there was this cute little canto-band playing very good chinese and english songs. The girl even bell out ‘Bleeding Love’ and ‘Poker Face’ in ballard, come on in ballard for canto-band and did it with her own style, she was awesome. I’ll definitely drop by there sometimes this week to listen to them again.

So what! I did this all alone. I’m neither pathetic nor loser! I’m just a singleton who sometimes love having some ‘me’ time alone. The whole points is I had so much fun watching the movies, dinner and great time listening to good band. Of course it will be some much fabulous if I get to share all this with someone special. However being alone also mean its much better than ended with rotten dates, right?

Now, bugger off …….

February 23, 2010, 11:15 am
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Have you ever walk into a room full of people and friends, which you are suppose to be the center of attention, yet you feel alone?

Why do you suppose we feel that way?

I felt rotten to feel that way, as those were really genuine good and nice friends. I was laughing, having a good time yet some part of me is missing.

All I ever want was to be with that someone ….. someone who define and complete me.
Will you please show up!!!!!

Life Path Number Reading …
January 2, 2010, 12:03 am
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Had my life path number calculated recently and it turn out to be number 7.
Is the reading accurate? That will depend on individual judgement.
For my case, its pretty close ….. real close!!!

Anyway, long story short ……..

Your Life Path Number: 7
Life Path Number 7: The Scientist

Having a Life Path Number 7 gives you extraordinary gifts for analysis and deep contemplation.

Although you have friends (and would have many more if you weren’t so selective), you would be quite content to wile away weeks at a time in an ivory tower researching some obscure topic that is fifty years ahead of it’s time.

Life Path Number 7 is the quicksilver of the numbers. With a combination of deep spiritual awareness and an intellect that is razor-sharp, you are able to make intuitive leaps that baffle your teachers, co-workers, friends and occasionally yourself. No, you won’t be able to explain how you came to that conclusion, but everyone who knows you knows that you are right.

Life Path Number 7s often have a carefully constructed wall around them. This does not mean you must take yourself off to a therapist, as it is there for a good reason (you are very quick to spot people who are insincere) but it may be something you should be aware of. Not everyone is good at scaling walls and some may need a gentle invitation into your ivory tower, rather than a series of tests to see if they are worthy of entering your inner circle.

Although you are a refined individual, you are one of the least judgemental: You truly see everyone you meet (at least, everyone you feel is worth getting to know) as a whole and vibrant person, regardless of race, wealth or social status. This is probably due to your spiritual guide (whatever form that takes), who you listen to closely and trust above all else – even above normal social mores and occasional laws!

Life Path Number 7s need to associate with people who understand their need for silence and solitude. You really are a person who needs time alone in that ivory tower to contemplate and recharge. To you, daydreaming is a valuable use of time, when creativity and inspiration are at their peak and you dislike anyone trying to ‘snap you out of it.’

This is a worthy goal, but one that can occasionally lead to selfishness. It’s fine to take time for yourself (lots of it in fact), as long as you allow for the occasional ’emergency needs’ of your children and other loved ones.

David’s journey to another world
December 6, 2009, 7:16 am
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This page is dedicated to my beloved who passed away  peacefully on 8th November 2009.

Your were my inspiration, mentor, my best friend, lover, husband and soul mate of 17years.

There will never be another David Lee in my life.

You took big part of me when you left.

Love for always

Elder sister Ann, kind aunt and sifu chanting peaceful journey for David to another world.

Both Bobby and Benjamin pray for their daddy safe and peaceful journey.

Back: Ron (brother), Amy (4th sister) Front: Tina (2nd sister), Lena (3rd sister), Bobby (1st son), Benjamin (2nd son), Ann (1st sister)

Both my sons and me